sino-sino kaya sila?

i've been visiting my friendster account lately and i noticed that they already had this somewhat counter on who viewed your account. my account has already been viewed 25 times since march 01, 2005, and my friends were somehow amazed because their profile were only viewed less than 10 times. i just tell them jokingly: "pangit man gud inyong pictures, walay interesado mutan-aw (hehehe)". i wonder who these people are. i hope they would come up with a feature that will show the people who viewed your account...hehehe, wala lang naintriga lang ako.

shet, summer na!

one of my most favorite time of the year. i wonder how my summer would be this year? hmmm...i think it's gonna be a beach season for me. why? because my weekend plans are focused on beach trips. actually, i already started it last sunday (march 27) with my hi-school friends. we celebrated Easter at Paradise Island Beach Resort (Samal). the weather was great because it was a bit cloudy and we were spared from the scorching heat of the sun. hehehe...that's a big thing for people like us who are afraid of having sun burnt skin and are somewhat obsessed with skin whitening products. although we felt the sun's presence at noon time, the heat was bearable and we still managed to maintain our normal complexion. talk about vanity!

most of my weekends are scheduled for beach outings. i plan to go back to Paradise for an overnight with my officemates. i'm not just so sure if this would push through since everybody is busy with work and i find it very tiring to spend our rest day swimming. there are also plans of having a day tour at Pearl Farm with my family. i'm just crossing my fingers that these plans would be made possible.

by the way, how could i forget our upcoming trip to Boracay that was planned a long time ago. i'm sure there'll be lots of fun and adventures that awaits us. shet! i don't wanna get "overly-excited" with the trip because someone or something might just burst my bubble. puhleez, give me a break! i'm gonna be a freakin' beach bum this april!

bawal daw?

the department concerned with internet connections in the office wouldn't allow me to have access to the internet. bakit? kasi bawal daw...ok fine! after sometime, they had my computer connected to the net but i need to have a password first to be able to connect...anak ka ng pusher! if that was the case, hindi na lang sana nila kinonek yung computer ko, useless lang di ba? pero syempre may pagka hacker ako eh, hehehe...(my special talent not everybody knows), and with the help of my computer wizard officemate...tsaran!!! welcome to the world wide web! hehehe...connected na din ako sa wakas...kaya hindi na ako masyadong mabo-bored dito sa office..i have to end up this post because i still have lots of sites to explore.

kasalanan mo

ikaw ang dahilan kung ba't ako lonely
ikaw ang dahilan ng tagihawat sa aking pisngi
kasalanan mo kung ba't gusto kong magka-steady
ikaw rin ang may sala kung ba't ganito ako ka-corny.

load ko ay nauubos nang dahil sa 'yo
laman ng cellphone ko puro messages mo
kahit simpleng "ok" sini-save ko
mabasa lang pangalan mo, solb na ako.

kahit minsan ako ba'y iyong naisip?
parang hangin nag-iba yata ang iyong ihip
mula nang lumisan ikaw yata ay naidlip
sikat ng araw 'di ko na masilip.

mabuti pang hindi ka nakilala
e di sana ngayon 'di kita naaalala
mabuti pang umalis ka ng walang sinabi
hindi sana ako umasa't nasaktan ng ganito katindi.


fyi: sinulat ko ito nung may 18, 2003 (4:30 pm) habang naghihintay ako ng oras ng uwian. tambak ang trabaho ko ng mga panahong 'yun pero masyado pa akong pre-occupied sa mga pangyayaring naganap nung company outing namin sa camiguin. ano bang kinalaman ng camiguin sa poem na ito? wala naman, naalala ko lang kasi ang camiguin at malapit na rin ang summer. ito nga pala yung second poem na ginawa ko para dun sa lalaking mahilig kumain ng durian at ginamit pa ang Phil. Eagle sa kanyang pick-up line. nakita ko rin ang kopya matapos ang ilang oras na paghahalughog ko sa mga nagkalat na papel sa aking kwarto. buti na lang nagkaroon ng People Power holiday at nagkaroon ako ng oras para maglinis ng kwarto.

abangan: may isa pa akong ginawang kasing-corny din nito pero hindi na 'yun para sa kanya, para sa sumunod sa kanya yun. next time ko na lang uli ipo-post.

confused

valentine's day ay tapos na
pero buwan ng Pebrero ay hindi pa
isang araw na lang ay babay na
kung gusto kong magpaka-senti ay pwede pa

ilang beses na rin akong nagpaka-feeling
akala ko may pagtingin ka sa akin
dahil na rin sa mga sulyap mo't hirit
na sa tingin ko ay hinog sa pilit.

puso ko ay confused
utak ko ay overused
sa bawat text message mo
lalo lang gumugulo

isang play pa ng "heaven" sa radyo
babasagin ko ito't ibabato
paulit-ulit na naririnig ko
boses mong pwede na kahit sintunado

ako'y nagpapaka-over,
wala akong pakialam whatsoever
parang gusto kong magka-fever
'di ko alam kung ito ay forever...


history: i wrote this on feb. 28, 2003 (12:32 am).

this is for the guy who loves to eat durian and uses the Phil. Eagle for his pick-up line. His one and only line that made my mouth shut for the rest of the day. wala akong naisagot sa sinabi nya because i wasn't so sure if it was just a joke. but even if it wasn't, i still don't know how i will react. kahit yung mga friends ko hindi rin nakapag-react. i was shocked because we were used to answer every joke that they throw at us but this one is an exception. one of my friends answered back after minutes of silence, but it was not the answer that i wanted to give. sinakyan ko na lang din para lang hindi ako matameme.

he texted me that night before their flight back to manila. hiningi nya pala ang # ko sa isa kong friend. wow naman, kung gaano kataas ang building ng Landco, feeling ko ganun din kahaba ang hair ko, hehehe...

saka lang ako nakaisip ng magandang sagot the day after it happened. shet! kung kelan bumalik na sya sa manila saka ko pa naisip ang dapat kong isagot...double shet! weeks after, nawala ang cellphone nya...triple shet! na-block ang sim ko...wwwaaaahhhh!! kung kelan ok na sana...akala ko talaga yun na, hindi pa pala...kung bakit kasi andaming hadlang!

p.s. dalawang poems ang ginawa ko para sa kanya, pero nawawala yung kopya ng isa kaya ito na lang muna ang pinost ko...i still have to find the other one. tamang-tama holiday bukas maglilinis ako ng kwarto...abangan!

the next piece

if the only way to be with you
is write a poem and sing it too
i know it's hard, i know it's true
i know that i could catch some flu

with this profession i'm a neophyte
but i am confident i can give a good fight
'coz i always long to hold you tight
i don't care whether it's day or night

where should i start, where should i end?
will this be enough or i still have to mend?
can you be my lover or at least be my friend?
answer me please so i don't have to pretend

make this your next piece and one thing's for sure
that i will keep this forever and i will treasure
making it to the top won't be a pressure
'coz my feelings for you would always endure...


konting trivia: i wrote this on feb. 15, 2001 (5pm) for my crush wayback in college. he was fond of joining AWITENISTA, a song writing competition in AdDU, and eventually won the grand prize. funny thing is that i don't know the lyrics of his winning piece, i even forgot the title of it. maybe you would ask kung crush ko talaga siya...oo naman, slight nga lang. pag ginawa nyang song itong poem na 'to baka maging "super crush" ko na sya, hehehe...but how could he turn this into a song if he doesn't even know i exist?

abangan! more original corny love poems to come...hehehe...

last song syndrome

you'll be safe here
-rivermaya-

nobody knows
just why we're here
could it be fate
or random circumstance
at the right place
at the right time
two roads intertwine

and if the universe conspired
to meld our lives
to make us fuel and fire
then know wherever you will be
so too shall i be

close your eyes
dry your tears
'coz when nothing seems clear
you'll be safe here

from the sheer weight
of your doubts and fears
weary heart
you'll be safe here

remember how we laughed
until we cried
at the most stupid things
like we were so high
but love was all that we were on
we belong

and though the world would never understand
this unlikely union
and why it still stands
someday we will be set free
pray and believe

when the light disappears
and when this wolrd's insincere
you'll be safe here
when nobody hears you scream
i'll scream with you
you'll be safe here

save your eyes
from your tears
when everything's unclear
you'll be safe here

from the sheer weight
of your doubts and fears
wounded heart
you'll be safe here

when the light disappears
and when this world's insincere
you'll be safe here

when nobody hears you scream
i'll scream with you
you'll be safe here

in my arms
through the long cold night
sleep tight
you'll be safe here

when no one understands
i believe
you'll be safe (2x)
you'll be safe here

put your heart in my hands
you'll be safe here... - - - favorite line

updates...

valentine's day is fast approaching kaya naman inupdate ko na ang aking windows media player sa office (hehehe...) one of my favorite is LISTEN by STONEFREE kaya naman ilang ulit ko syang pineplay sa isang araw..next on my list would be COME AROUND by RHETT MILLER, and of course VERTICAL HORIZON's BEST I EVER HAD...there are also songs from APO, E'heads, Alice Peacock, Splender, and Avril Lavigne...basta i love my new playlist that's why i named it "love ko 'to" (hehehe...)

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i'm thinking of posting some mushy stuff this coming feb. para naman bumagay sa occassion...but i'm thinking twice because it really sounds so corny, hehehe...pero pag-iisipan ko rin...i wrote it 2 years ago anyway, and hindi naman siguro nila mababasa yun. pero kng mabasa man nila hindi nila malalaman na sila yung mga taong involved dun, hehehe...kaya abangan nyo na lang!

...because i got high

/me I was gonna update my blog but then I got high…

lots of things and events happened last December that I wanna write in my blog but I haven’t had the time to do it.

my birthday. that day was really funny because nobody in the office knows that it’s my birthday. we were supposed to have practice for our christmas party presentation but i insisted to reschedule it because i said that i still have to buy gift eventhough i already bought it a week ago. hahaha, naisahan ko silang lahat!!!

christmas party. honestly, i didn’t enjoy it. imagine having your christmas party in one of the covert gay bars in the city. the place was exclusively reserved for our department but it was not a good choice of venue for parties like this. the food was not that good, the airconditioning system was out of order, the comfort rooms were poor, the music sucks, and some of my colleagues were so annoying. i ended up drinking sanmig light to quench my thirst after sweating a lot eventhough i was just sitting the entire night (thanks to the unconditioned aircon).oh, and before i forget, i need to mention their glasses which i suppose were lockedin their cupboard for like 48 years because it smells like cockroach and the drinks tastes like one too.

christmas vacation. i spent my Christmas and new year in davao, but the days in between were spent in batangas. i went there due to insistent public demand (hehehe…) i was the maid of honor during my Tita’s wedding. five days were not enough to satisfy me, considering that two days of it were spent in traveling from Davao-Manila-Batangas and vice versa.

on my second day, talagang nilubos ko na. We went to lipa and bought balisong keychains, the straw-licking palamig, a pack of kalihim bread and balut. wow, that was a treat!

note: a separate article for the christmas party will be posted soon…i still have to write about it.

a birthday bash!

LSS: REAL by Plumb
“look at me I’m twenty three, beautiful, a sight to see tonight…”

1 day to go and I’ll be turning 23. I don’t plan on throwing out a party, but I had an advance celebration last Saturday (Dec. 11) because it was my nephew’s first birthday. Makikisakay na lang ako sa children’s party nya para walang gastos, hehehe…and sometimes it feels good to be kid again.

Birthdays Rewind…

I can’t recall any of my birthday parties when I was a kid. I’m not really sure if I had cake every year, but I can remember when I turned 7 or 8 years old, I had a pink cake courtesy of Minâ (Auntie). I’m not even sure if it was round or rectangle, basta ang alam ko may cake ako.

Birthday 1999: Debut

It was a weekday and our preliminary exam was scheduled that week. I had a celebration but it was not a typical debut party. I don’t have the 18 roses, 18 candles, and the cotillion. It was just a simple gathering with my family, relatives, and a few close friends. I was not dressed like a typical debutante. I was wearing a plain gray shirt and a pair of faded maong pants. My sister and I opted for a blue rectangular birthday cake to complete the celebration.

Birthday 2002: 21 years old

It was a weekend and we decided to go on nature tripping para maiba naman. I celebrated my birthday at EPOL SPRING RESORT in Marilog District with my family (minus ate mimi), two of my closest friends (Ethel and Presy), and our dog Pam. We had so much fun while swimming in the freezing water and trekking in the slippery pathways. Halos lahat kami nadulas including Pam. On our way home, kuya asked me: “happy jud ka sa imong birthday en?” I just laughed at him.

December 13, 2002. 9pm. The Mongols concert at Blue Post Bar and Billiards grounds. Since the band’s main man is Ely Buendia, my sister and I went out to watch the concert even if we don’t know any single song of the band. The place was not too crowded since they’re not that popular yet.

We were heading to the restroom when I spotted Ely and his bandmates in one of the tables and I noticed that he was looking at our direction. (Hehehe…I know what you’re thinking. Hindi ako nag-a-assume, he really looked at us). The girl’s restroom was so full so I just waited for my sister outside. I leaned on the wall facing the mirror in the men’s cr, and much to my surprise, Ely Buendia was coming to answer the call of nature (I assume). He was looking at the mirror while brushing his hair with his fingers. It went on for a while and I was looking at him without batting an eyelash. I looked at his back, I watched him do his hair, and I simply admire his image in the mirror. He turned around and closed the door, and just seconds later he emerged from the cr. That caught my attention. Ganun ba ako kagrabe tumingin para mailang sya at pagsarhan ako ng pinto? You can ‘t blame me if I looked at him that way. I’m just a fan who longs to see my long time crush and idol in person (as in yung malapitan talaga). And there he was only inches away from me and yet I was too hesitant to get the FRUITCAKE book inside my bag and ask for his autograph. I can clearly feel and hear my heartbeat and the butterflies in my stomach. He was so near and yet so far.

Take note: Nanalamin lang sya sa cr, hindi man lang sya umihi. Uuuyyyy, si Ely talagang sinundan pa kami sa cr. Hhhmmm…parang may pagnanasa, hehehe…(walang papalag, do not forget that it’s my birthday. I have every right to daydream and let my imagination run wild…wilder…wildest…?)

So to make the long story short, they performed, we watched, and the rain started pouring as they were about to finish their last song. They headed back to the restaurant area, and there we were, trying to gain enough guts to approach this somewhat unapproachable guy. We ended up talking to his wife Dianne.

me and my sis: excuse me.
dianne: yes?
me and my sis: pwedeng magpa-sign?
dianne: sure. (Dianne to Ely: o, ayan may pila ka na)

I handed the book over to Ely while my sister instructed him where to sign. We said thank you and gave him our “close-up commercial” smile. He answered you’re welcome while smiling and that revealed his braces. Wow, biruin mo, the three of us got something in common pala! Hehehe…

I looked at my watch, it was already past midnight and that means birthday ko na. We left the place immediately after getting Ely’s autograph, and went home riding a jeepney.

Sayang hindi namin dinala ang camera. Sayang hindi pa uso sa amin ang camera phones. Sayang nag-jeep lng kami pauwi (mas mabilis sana kaming nakarating sa bahay kung nagtaxi kami, at pagkakataon ko na sanang makasakay ng taxi…joke!). Sayang lang ang pera namin sa taxi, mas masaya naman sumakay sa jeep. Sayang hindi ako nakabili ng birthday cake.

Oo, maraming sayang. Maraming “sana ganito”, “sana ganyan”. Pero masaya ako kasi hindi nasayang ang araw na ‘yun – ang araw ko. Sa lahat ng nangyari sa concert at sa outing, nalaman kong hindi lang pala isang simpleng greetings ang HAPPY BIRTHDAY…

(alam nyo na siguro ang sagot ko sa tanong ni kuya)