updates...

valentine's day is fast approaching kaya naman inupdate ko na ang aking windows media player sa office (hehehe...) one of my favorite is LISTEN by STONEFREE kaya naman ilang ulit ko syang pineplay sa isang araw..next on my list would be COME AROUND by RHETT MILLER, and of course VERTICAL HORIZON's BEST I EVER HAD...there are also songs from APO, E'heads, Alice Peacock, Splender, and Avril Lavigne...basta i love my new playlist that's why i named it "love ko 'to" (hehehe...)

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i'm thinking of posting some mushy stuff this coming feb. para naman bumagay sa occassion...but i'm thinking twice because it really sounds so corny, hehehe...pero pag-iisipan ko rin...i wrote it 2 years ago anyway, and hindi naman siguro nila mababasa yun. pero kng mabasa man nila hindi nila malalaman na sila yung mga taong involved dun, hehehe...kaya abangan nyo na lang!

...because i got high

/me I was gonna update my blog but then I got high…

lots of things and events happened last December that I wanna write in my blog but I haven’t had the time to do it.

my birthday. that day was really funny because nobody in the office knows that it’s my birthday. we were supposed to have practice for our christmas party presentation but i insisted to reschedule it because i said that i still have to buy gift eventhough i already bought it a week ago. hahaha, naisahan ko silang lahat!!!

christmas party. honestly, i didn’t enjoy it. imagine having your christmas party in one of the covert gay bars in the city. the place was exclusively reserved for our department but it was not a good choice of venue for parties like this. the food was not that good, the airconditioning system was out of order, the comfort rooms were poor, the music sucks, and some of my colleagues were so annoying. i ended up drinking sanmig light to quench my thirst after sweating a lot eventhough i was just sitting the entire night (thanks to the unconditioned aircon).oh, and before i forget, i need to mention their glasses which i suppose were lockedin their cupboard for like 48 years because it smells like cockroach and the drinks tastes like one too.

christmas vacation. i spent my Christmas and new year in davao, but the days in between were spent in batangas. i went there due to insistent public demand (hehehe…) i was the maid of honor during my Tita’s wedding. five days were not enough to satisfy me, considering that two days of it were spent in traveling from Davao-Manila-Batangas and vice versa.

on my second day, talagang nilubos ko na. We went to lipa and bought balisong keychains, the straw-licking palamig, a pack of kalihim bread and balut. wow, that was a treat!

note: a separate article for the christmas party will be posted soon…i still have to write about it.

a birthday bash!

LSS: REAL by Plumb
“look at me I’m twenty three, beautiful, a sight to see tonight…”

1 day to go and I’ll be turning 23. I don’t plan on throwing out a party, but I had an advance celebration last Saturday (Dec. 11) because it was my nephew’s first birthday. Makikisakay na lang ako sa children’s party nya para walang gastos, hehehe…and sometimes it feels good to be kid again.

Birthdays Rewind…

I can’t recall any of my birthday parties when I was a kid. I’m not really sure if I had cake every year, but I can remember when I turned 7 or 8 years old, I had a pink cake courtesy of Minâ (Auntie). I’m not even sure if it was round or rectangle, basta ang alam ko may cake ako.

Birthday 1999: Debut

It was a weekday and our preliminary exam was scheduled that week. I had a celebration but it was not a typical debut party. I don’t have the 18 roses, 18 candles, and the cotillion. It was just a simple gathering with my family, relatives, and a few close friends. I was not dressed like a typical debutante. I was wearing a plain gray shirt and a pair of faded maong pants. My sister and I opted for a blue rectangular birthday cake to complete the celebration.

Birthday 2002: 21 years old

It was a weekend and we decided to go on nature tripping para maiba naman. I celebrated my birthday at EPOL SPRING RESORT in Marilog District with my family (minus ate mimi), two of my closest friends (Ethel and Presy), and our dog Pam. We had so much fun while swimming in the freezing water and trekking in the slippery pathways. Halos lahat kami nadulas including Pam. On our way home, kuya asked me: “happy jud ka sa imong birthday en?” I just laughed at him.

December 13, 2002. 9pm. The Mongols concert at Blue Post Bar and Billiards grounds. Since the band’s main man is Ely Buendia, my sister and I went out to watch the concert even if we don’t know any single song of the band. The place was not too crowded since they’re not that popular yet.

We were heading to the restroom when I spotted Ely and his bandmates in one of the tables and I noticed that he was looking at our direction. (Hehehe…I know what you’re thinking. Hindi ako nag-a-assume, he really looked at us). The girl’s restroom was so full so I just waited for my sister outside. I leaned on the wall facing the mirror in the men’s cr, and much to my surprise, Ely Buendia was coming to answer the call of nature (I assume). He was looking at the mirror while brushing his hair with his fingers. It went on for a while and I was looking at him without batting an eyelash. I looked at his back, I watched him do his hair, and I simply admire his image in the mirror. He turned around and closed the door, and just seconds later he emerged from the cr. That caught my attention. Ganun ba ako kagrabe tumingin para mailang sya at pagsarhan ako ng pinto? You can ‘t blame me if I looked at him that way. I’m just a fan who longs to see my long time crush and idol in person (as in yung malapitan talaga). And there he was only inches away from me and yet I was too hesitant to get the FRUITCAKE book inside my bag and ask for his autograph. I can clearly feel and hear my heartbeat and the butterflies in my stomach. He was so near and yet so far.

Take note: Nanalamin lang sya sa cr, hindi man lang sya umihi. Uuuyyyy, si Ely talagang sinundan pa kami sa cr. Hhhmmm…parang may pagnanasa, hehehe…(walang papalag, do not forget that it’s my birthday. I have every right to daydream and let my imagination run wild…wilder…wildest…?)

So to make the long story short, they performed, we watched, and the rain started pouring as they were about to finish their last song. They headed back to the restaurant area, and there we were, trying to gain enough guts to approach this somewhat unapproachable guy. We ended up talking to his wife Dianne.

me and my sis: excuse me.
dianne: yes?
me and my sis: pwedeng magpa-sign?
dianne: sure. (Dianne to Ely: o, ayan may pila ka na)

I handed the book over to Ely while my sister instructed him where to sign. We said thank you and gave him our “close-up commercial” smile. He answered you’re welcome while smiling and that revealed his braces. Wow, biruin mo, the three of us got something in common pala! Hehehe…

I looked at my watch, it was already past midnight and that means birthday ko na. We left the place immediately after getting Ely’s autograph, and went home riding a jeepney.

Sayang hindi namin dinala ang camera. Sayang hindi pa uso sa amin ang camera phones. Sayang nag-jeep lng kami pauwi (mas mabilis sana kaming nakarating sa bahay kung nagtaxi kami, at pagkakataon ko na sanang makasakay ng taxi…joke!). Sayang lang ang pera namin sa taxi, mas masaya naman sumakay sa jeep. Sayang hindi ako nakabili ng birthday cake.

Oo, maraming sayang. Maraming “sana ganito”, “sana ganyan”. Pero masaya ako kasi hindi nasayang ang araw na ‘yun – ang araw ko. Sa lahat ng nangyari sa concert at sa outing, nalaman kong hindi lang pala isang simpleng greetings ang HAPPY BIRTHDAY…

(alam nyo na siguro ang sagot ko sa tanong ni kuya)

last full show

i got to watch The Incredibles last saturday night right after I met up with my friends. it was my first time to watch a last full show alone, and i thought there would be less people inside the cinema. but i was surprised to see the place full of moviegoers and most of them are kids (alangan naman, it's a movie intended for kids!). i was expecting that there would be no "movie pests" during that time slot, but i was wrong. kids outnumbered the adults. seated next to me was a family with three "super makukulit" kids. all throughout the movie, they kept asking their mom about what happened to the super heroes, convincing her to buy them The Incredibles merchandise, and one of them even asks where the hell is spiderman while munching his popcorn and trying to make a noise with his drink. for God's sake could you please shut up! kids like these are not cute (well, for me) when you're trying to concentrate on something.

wala lang

i have nothing to do in the office. it's a saturday and there are no bosses around...yahoo!!

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dahil sa walang magawa, i went on checking my emails. binasa ko lahat ng mga emails ko except the forwarded messages, and one particular email from my friend made my eyes glued on the monitor as my mind wanders in another world...wala lang, binasa ko lang naman ng ilang ulit ang message nya...i think i just miss this person so much...kelan kaya ulit sya mag-eemail and kelan ko kaya ulit sya makikita?

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i received a message from my friend in the states and i was so happy to hear that she finally tied the knot...we're excited to see the pictures!

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i want to watch a movie (The Incredibles probably) later but i remembered i have to meet up some friends after office...i'll just watch it on monday since it's a non-working holiday.

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my friends and i are meeting up in port cafe, but i'm craving for space burgers. i hope i can convince them to have some burger instead of gulping down a cookies and cream shake.

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tado female versions

zzzzzzz........

"ganito ang umaga, di pagpapalit sa iba,
kapag ikaw ang kapiling, sumasarap ang gising..."
-true faith-

whew! at last i got to wake up at 10:30am again. Since i started with my new job, i need to wake up at 6:30 am everyday and i'm not used to it.



talk about hang over!

saturday sunshine

Reasons why I love coming to work on saturdays:

·Napatugtog ko na lahat ng entries sa playlist ng winamp.
·Highest scorer na ako sa lahat ng games sa pc ko
·Na-check ko na lahat ng emails ko, nagreply na din ako sa mga dapat
kong replyan.
·Nag-update na ako ng friendster account ko.
·Nabasa ko na lahat ng articles sa http://peyups.com
·Nakailang posts na rin ako sa http://pinoyexchange.com
·Na-visit ko na lahat ng blogs at websites na paborito kong puntahan

Lahat ng pwede kong gawin para palipasin ang oras nagawa ko na, pero ang bagal pa rin umikot ng relo. Kahit anong gawin ko, ayaw pa rin tumapat ng short hand sa #5 at ng long hand sa #12. Hindi naman ako pwedeng lumabas ng office. Mas lalong hindi ako pwedeng maglakadlakad dito sa department namin dahil magmumukha naman akong tanga. Kailangan magmukha akong busy. Kailangan magmukha pa rin akong nagtatrabaho at nag-aanalyze ng kung ano mang pwedeng i-analyze na work-related, kahit na ang talagang focus ko ay makuha ang possible longest words sa text twist.

10..9..8..7..6..5..4..3..2..WWWOOOOOOOOOOO……hay, salamat! Nibagting na jud.

when I die

Lunchbreak. Everybody were through eating their lunch and were busy talking about their dream weddings when I enter the room. As I took a seat, five pairs of eyes were staring at me and one of them suddenly asked me, “ikaw, anong dream wedding mo?” I started chewing on a piece of pork steak and I just smiled at them and answered, “wala akong dream wedding, dream funeral meron ako.” Everyone in the room was shocked after hearing my answer. One of them said that I am so morbid. Another asked if I’m ok. A girl commented that it’s not normal for girls our age to think about death, funerals and stuffs like that. Everybody in the room find me weird.

I let them continue on their comments, reactions, and questions, while I continue munching on my food. I hurriedly finished my lunch and immediately left the place with five persons wearing puzzled look on their faces.

Hahaha! I was laughing my heart out while I brush my teeth. Why? ‘Coz I don’t really have that dream funeral thing on my mind. I just want them to stop bugging me with those kind of questions because it’s not very ME, and I don’t want to strain my mind thinking about those kind of stuffs.

Nakakatawa lang kasi sa dami ng pwede kong isagot, yun pa talaga yung naisip kong sabihin. Maybe it’s one of the effects of working for a memorial park for almost three years.

I had once witnessed the funeral rites of one of our clients. There were like four dead people in just one interment schedule since they came from just one family. Their death was so tragic because they were victims of the Davao Seaport bombing. I can clearly see and feel the family’s grievances as the victims were laid to rest.

On that moment, I suddenly imagined my own burial rites. I said to myself that I don’t want a tragic death, because I don’t want people to cry during my funeral. I want them to be happy for me that I am finally laid to rest.

I want my interment day to be filled with music. My playlist would only have three songs. These are “Crossroads” by Bone-thugs-n-harmony, With a Smile by E’heads, and Paglisan by Color it Red.

Crossroads: because “I’m gonna miss everybody”
With a smile: because I want people to smile on my funeral. “now it’s time to kiss away those tears goodbye…
Paglisan: because wala lang. I just want to add drama in a somewhat melodramatic ambience. And the lyrics really suits the occasion. “at sa ‘yong paglisan ang tanging pabaon ko, ay pag-ibig…”

Instead of throwing flowers while my coffin is being pulled down, I want people to throw pieces of papers with their personalized note. I want them to write something that reminds them of me. It could be anything from funny moments, embarrassing ones, dramatic events, happenings at school, at work, etc. I want them to write on that piece of paper if they were once angry with me, if I hurt them or caused them pain, if I made them happy when I’m still alive, if they had loved me and how much they had loved me. They could also write a letter, compose a song, make a poem, or offer their prayers. I want everybody to tell me everything that they hadn’t told me when I was still alive through that piece of paper, because when I die, I want to bring all the memories that happened in my life.

These notes and songs would be the one to keep me company, and help lessen the boredom as I took the long journey to my next destination.


Note: I’m still looking for a nice epitaph to engrave on my tombstone.

sembreak

give me a break! i've been working 8 hrs. a day, 6 days a week from 8am-5pm. how i wish i am still a college student so that i can enjoy the privilege of having a sembreak. today would be the last day of the semester for most of the schools, and i can't help but envy the students. they can sleep and wake up anytime they want. they can do whatever they wanna do. they would be spared from their daily routine, quizzes, exams, projects, assignments, reports, oral recitations and teachers. they could sleep all they want. that's all i wanna do right now ---to sleep.

i just want to lie in bed with that sembreak song playing on the radio, lulling me to sleep, putting me in a deep slumber, keeping me company as i enter the dreamworld, where my boss doesn't exist and leaving all the worries behind the so-called real world where everything is not so real...

sembreak...naaalala kita....