kasalanan mo

ikaw ang dahilan kung ba't ako lonely
ikaw ang dahilan ng tagihawat sa aking pisngi
kasalanan mo kung ba't gusto kong magka-steady
ikaw rin ang may sala kung ba't ganito ako ka-corny.

load ko ay nauubos nang dahil sa 'yo
laman ng cellphone ko puro messages mo
kahit simpleng "ok" sini-save ko
mabasa lang pangalan mo, solb na ako.

kahit minsan ako ba'y iyong naisip?
parang hangin nag-iba yata ang iyong ihip
mula nang lumisan ikaw yata ay naidlip
sikat ng araw 'di ko na masilip.

mabuti pang hindi ka nakilala
e di sana ngayon 'di kita naaalala
mabuti pang umalis ka ng walang sinabi
hindi sana ako umasa't nasaktan ng ganito katindi.


fyi: sinulat ko ito nung may 18, 2003 (4:30 pm) habang naghihintay ako ng oras ng uwian. tambak ang trabaho ko ng mga panahong 'yun pero masyado pa akong pre-occupied sa mga pangyayaring naganap nung company outing namin sa camiguin. ano bang kinalaman ng camiguin sa poem na ito? wala naman, naalala ko lang kasi ang camiguin at malapit na rin ang summer. ito nga pala yung second poem na ginawa ko para dun sa lalaking mahilig kumain ng durian at ginamit pa ang Phil. Eagle sa kanyang pick-up line. nakita ko rin ang kopya matapos ang ilang oras na paghahalughog ko sa mga nagkalat na papel sa aking kwarto. buti na lang nagkaroon ng People Power holiday at nagkaroon ako ng oras para maglinis ng kwarto.

abangan: may isa pa akong ginawang kasing-corny din nito pero hindi na 'yun para sa kanya, para sa sumunod sa kanya yun. next time ko na lang uli ipo-post.

confused

valentine's day ay tapos na
pero buwan ng Pebrero ay hindi pa
isang araw na lang ay babay na
kung gusto kong magpaka-senti ay pwede pa

ilang beses na rin akong nagpaka-feeling
akala ko may pagtingin ka sa akin
dahil na rin sa mga sulyap mo't hirit
na sa tingin ko ay hinog sa pilit.

puso ko ay confused
utak ko ay overused
sa bawat text message mo
lalo lang gumugulo

isang play pa ng "heaven" sa radyo
babasagin ko ito't ibabato
paulit-ulit na naririnig ko
boses mong pwede na kahit sintunado

ako'y nagpapaka-over,
wala akong pakialam whatsoever
parang gusto kong magka-fever
'di ko alam kung ito ay forever...


history: i wrote this on feb. 28, 2003 (12:32 am).

this is for the guy who loves to eat durian and uses the Phil. Eagle for his pick-up line. His one and only line that made my mouth shut for the rest of the day. wala akong naisagot sa sinabi nya because i wasn't so sure if it was just a joke. but even if it wasn't, i still don't know how i will react. kahit yung mga friends ko hindi rin nakapag-react. i was shocked because we were used to answer every joke that they throw at us but this one is an exception. one of my friends answered back after minutes of silence, but it was not the answer that i wanted to give. sinakyan ko na lang din para lang hindi ako matameme.

he texted me that night before their flight back to manila. hiningi nya pala ang # ko sa isa kong friend. wow naman, kung gaano kataas ang building ng Landco, feeling ko ganun din kahaba ang hair ko, hehehe...

saka lang ako nakaisip ng magandang sagot the day after it happened. shet! kung kelan bumalik na sya sa manila saka ko pa naisip ang dapat kong isagot...double shet! weeks after, nawala ang cellphone nya...triple shet! na-block ang sim ko...wwwaaaahhhh!! kung kelan ok na sana...akala ko talaga yun na, hindi pa pala...kung bakit kasi andaming hadlang!

p.s. dalawang poems ang ginawa ko para sa kanya, pero nawawala yung kopya ng isa kaya ito na lang muna ang pinost ko...i still have to find the other one. tamang-tama holiday bukas maglilinis ako ng kwarto...abangan!

the next piece

if the only way to be with you
is write a poem and sing it too
i know it's hard, i know it's true
i know that i could catch some flu

with this profession i'm a neophyte
but i am confident i can give a good fight
'coz i always long to hold you tight
i don't care whether it's day or night

where should i start, where should i end?
will this be enough or i still have to mend?
can you be my lover or at least be my friend?
answer me please so i don't have to pretend

make this your next piece and one thing's for sure
that i will keep this forever and i will treasure
making it to the top won't be a pressure
'coz my feelings for you would always endure...


konting trivia: i wrote this on feb. 15, 2001 (5pm) for my crush wayback in college. he was fond of joining AWITENISTA, a song writing competition in AdDU, and eventually won the grand prize. funny thing is that i don't know the lyrics of his winning piece, i even forgot the title of it. maybe you would ask kung crush ko talaga siya...oo naman, slight nga lang. pag ginawa nyang song itong poem na 'to baka maging "super crush" ko na sya, hehehe...but how could he turn this into a song if he doesn't even know i exist?

abangan! more original corny love poems to come...hehehe...

last song syndrome

you'll be safe here
-rivermaya-

nobody knows
just why we're here
could it be fate
or random circumstance
at the right place
at the right time
two roads intertwine

and if the universe conspired
to meld our lives
to make us fuel and fire
then know wherever you will be
so too shall i be

close your eyes
dry your tears
'coz when nothing seems clear
you'll be safe here

from the sheer weight
of your doubts and fears
weary heart
you'll be safe here

remember how we laughed
until we cried
at the most stupid things
like we were so high
but love was all that we were on
we belong

and though the world would never understand
this unlikely union
and why it still stands
someday we will be set free
pray and believe

when the light disappears
and when this wolrd's insincere
you'll be safe here
when nobody hears you scream
i'll scream with you
you'll be safe here

save your eyes
from your tears
when everything's unclear
you'll be safe here

from the sheer weight
of your doubts and fears
wounded heart
you'll be safe here

when the light disappears
and when this world's insincere
you'll be safe here

when nobody hears you scream
i'll scream with you
you'll be safe here

in my arms
through the long cold night
sleep tight
you'll be safe here

when no one understands
i believe
you'll be safe (2x)
you'll be safe here

put your heart in my hands
you'll be safe here... - - - favorite line